Shebang's Random Thoughts

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The month of April will come to an end, I will post my random thoughts throughout the month :) 

The month of April will come to an end, so in the first day of May you will see some post in your news feed that says " Please May  be good to me" posts. I brace myself about that. For me, its kinda annoying because every month I always see that kind of posts. 

The summer sun is heating up, its very hot and because of that I'm not feeling (as I write this post, sore throat is annoying me). Whatever I do the hotness of the sun is killing me. I wish it will rain..

Im in halfway finishing reading my favorite book the Alchemist. I really love the novel because it really inspires me to believe and follow my dreams.

Its now Playoffs season baby! My day wouldn't complete if I don't have the opportunity to watch a single NBA playoffs game. Every games give me thrills and happiness. I am a Dallas Maverick fan, I love Mavericks with all my heart. Dirk Nowitzki is my all time favorite NBA player. I am Mavs Fan For Life!!

Football season is about to end Spanish League, English Premier League, UEFA Champions League, EUFA Europa League. Yes I follow football games especially European Football Leagues, but it doesn't mean that I watch all the matches, well not all, but I am updated to some scores and some football news.

I like to stay up late at night, I dont know why I am not sleepy in the wee hours in the morning. Im just watching TV or surfing the net. But in the morning I always wake up late, nocturnal ehh,? (life of a jobless)

I have the chance to talk with my crush!! OMG!! but not personally, really thanked God that there is a ask.fm. yeahh!! I asked him some questions and he answered it. (whatever you call it, but i am happy). I can say that he is very intelligent, fucking love his wit and charm. Slowly but surely I stopped stalking him in facebook because its kinda creepy.

I spent my Holy Week together with my family, Its our yearly tradition to attend processions and to avoid to eat meat, but in this year I didnt follow it, I ate meat but for me its fine. 

If I have the chance to cut my hair, I would like to cut is super short pixie cut to be specific. The reasons are: the hotness of the weather, to look different, to have my own style. But I look super creepy and ugly to have short hair.

Lastly im sad because one of the best football coach in the entire world, passed away. Rest In Peace Tito Villanova. He was a FC Barcelona coach, he made records when he was managing the team. He died at very young age of 45, he died because of cancer.

So I hope you liked my random thoughts, coz its all about quirkiness  and being unpredictable well that's one of my characteristics. Im random and weird, they said that being weird is the side effect of being awesome. Be weird and Be awesome. 

Love,

Shebang

The Art of Being Alone

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I have some friends to talk to, to hanging out with, to keep and share secrets with, stick in good and bad times, sharing my craziness with and to cry with. I love my friends to death, I am thankful to have them, and I know they feel the same to me too.. I love my family they mean my world to me, because of them  I am living my dreams. Do you feel sometimes that you want to be alone? you want to escape the reality? you want to escape the busy city and you want to go to another place alone?

I love to be alone, I am ambivert person which I am comfortable with groups and social interaction but also spends time alone away from crowd. I think everyone have that characteristics, because sometimes we need to be alone, we can think things clearer and we can decide things.Everyday I am always in my bedroom, watching tv alone, surfing the net, listening to net, and reading books. Being in my bedroom gives me happiness, I feel I am perfect I can do whatever I like, coz no one is judging me. I can sing and i can dance ( I love to sing and dance but they doesn't like me ). I can meditate and think things, where I can make my decisions. I have my own world, and this is the place where I am happy the most.

I love to be alone, there are many perks about it, but when i see some people having fun with their friends, i see couples enjoying good time together, I see their child having some moments with their parents especially their moms. I feel I hope i can experience that too, As I read a quote in tumblr it says " I like being alone but I don't fancy being lonely. For me being alone and lonely are different. Sometimes you find happiness being alone while being lonely you are being sad all the time.

love,

shebang

Perfect Imperfections

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Everyone of us have flaws even if how beautiful and handsome you are. Even if people look at you as if you have a perfect life, you feel that something is missing. You have a great time with your significant one, friends and families but sometimes you want to spend your time alone. You want to wander something that how far will you go, you want to achieve something and to prove others that they are fucking wrong, you just want to escape the reality by listening to music or just traveling alone.

Sometimes in my life I came to the point that I don't know what to do, confused want will I gonna do in my life, until now still I don't know what are my talents, some people said that I am a late bloomer. Well, whatever.. i will discover them but not now. I can say to myself that I am the Queen of Flaws, I just feel it I don't know why. I know I'm not that beautiful but I have the looks that wander you if this person is gay or a girl. HAHAHA!! I have the looks that will wander you also if this girl is talking in front of you is a Filipina or  an Indian girl. (some people asking me if i have an Indian blood). I am pure Filipina and I'm proud of it :)

Im not perfect,I have may flaws. I remember when I was in my elementary years my classmate always tease me because of my big eyes.. like WUT?!  and some hurtful words that made me cry for the whole day. When I was in my high school years same dilemma again, they teased me and the worst part is they bullied me, I remembered there was a week i was crying and crying because some of my classmates embarrassed me in front of my classmates. I just lost hope at that time, I don't know what to do, that was one of the unforgettable moment happened in my life. I feel in that time, that I was the ugliest person in the whole wide world, I feel that I was alone, no one comforted me at that time, I have friends but they dont care at all, (but for me they are not my real friends, cause they also hurt me.) I hate myself about it. I hate everyone around me, I don't care at them, I wish they will all die (at that time), I wish they feel what I felt bullying and teasing me ( I didn't do anything bad against them,I don't know why they did that to me). I lost faith in myself, I lost my confidence, I dont trust anyone, I've been struggling and always find my self worth.

Days came, months came,.. I realized that if I always crying, pity myself, being alone nothing will happen to myself I will be lonely forever. I dont want that to happen. So, I accepted all my flaws, my imperfections. I dont care what people will say about me. It is my life anyway. I will do anything what I want as long as no one will hurt, I want to see others happy.

Being a beautiful is not all about make-up, having fancy clothes, having a lavish lifestyle. Being beautiful is all about accepting your flaws and being confident, making others happy, being true to yourself. Forget what happened in the past because it will leave you scars, move on because what important is your present and plan your future,coz this is all about how will you live this life,,.

love,

shebang

Bastille - Flaws - Acoustic [ Live in Paris ]

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I've been listening to this song lately and I fell in love with this,. because every lyrics of this song really struck me most. The songs of the rock band Bastille are inspiring one.  and don't forget to listen to your favorite songs in your playlist

There's a hole in my soul
Cant fill it, I cant fill it
There's a hole in my soul
Can you fill it? Can you fill it?

Have a wonderful weekend everyone :) 

love,

shebang

The Power of Over Thinking

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Everyday we use our brains in everything we do, even if we are sleeping we use our brains by dreaming or sometimes our inner body clock. As what my best friend wikipedia said "Thinking can refer to the act of producing thoughts or the process of producing thoughts. In spite of the fact that thought is a fundamental human activity familiar to everyone, there is no generally accepted agreement as to what thought is or how it is created". I'll tell you honestly that definition above is so deep that I kinda hardly understand, but somehow i think that, that's kinda deep.. but to much thinking can lead you to over thinking and it is not good.

I'm a fanatic of confusion and over thinking, and i think I have a condition right now and i think that they call it a  depression or bipolar I don't know what. But I don't seek medical help, I just having a thought about it. My brain of mine usually thinks of things that doesn't exist and leads me to confusion. I think things that will make another problem and thinking again about the possible solution of that fucking problem. Im a fan of daydreaming, dreaming about things that I wish it happened on me right now, and it leads me being a happy girl in 1 minute.

How to get out in this over thinking things? 

In my case I always do this in order for me to get out in this over think problems:

• Always listen to music. 
• I always sleep.
• Reading books
• Surfing the net/ watching television
• Have a conversation with family

Having a productive lifestyle will make you happy and will not think things that will lead you in confusion and overthinking.

love,

shebang

An Online Stalker

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We lived in this generation where our lives are as easy as 123 and as easy a ABC in terms of  finding new friends and in finding new relationships. Social media is the key why we have new found friends, we share the same thoughts interest and some opinions even if you have different timezone. Sometimes in their timelines you can identify his/her personality even you don't know him personally. Sometimes there are some online users are very open in what happened in their everyday life, some are posting what they had eaten in their lunch, where they are going, plans in their Holy Week or summer vacation, what they are watching or reading and among others.

Speaking of social media, my day wouldn't be complete without checking my facebook, twitter, and instagram accounts. I don't know why i got hooked with these, it simply gives me a smile by looking some pictures, reading some statuses and articles, and annoyed to the shallow status that are posted, (Bipolar here, HAHAHA). But recently I saw myself looking at this man's timeline everyday I don't know why I am super happy reading his status (his daily dilemma), looking his narcissistic photos and reading some long notes. And I ended up looking all his photos way back two years ago and also I looking his sisters profiles.. HAHAHA!! I ended up stalking him online and also I have admired him in his wit and charm. He is not that good looking but he is charming and he is very intelligent. He really inspires me everyday HAHAHA!! because of his wit and charm and how he sees his life (his life is an open book because he always posted what happened to him everyday). But i dont see myself ended up with him because he doesnt know that I am existed in this beautiful world, and Im intimidated with him because he is so intelligent and to his social circle that he belonged. And we are opposite to each other he is talented and I am not. And I am happy that he will ended up with someone that he likes and i know he will happy with that girl.

Well, you think that I am creepy. HAHAHA!! No Im not, Im just looking for an inspiration in order for me to be happy at least for a while. He never failed to amuse me because of his humor. Online stalking is also good because you have an idea of his personality, his likes and dislikes. You will save time and effort in discovering what he is doing in that day. But too much is addiction, just give some time in watching his profile maybe some minutes so that your day would not occupy thinking of his cute pictures.

Enjoy your day and dont forget looking your crush profile. :)

love,

shebang

The Reality of My Summer Vacation..

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In Philippines we experiencing summer during the months of March-May, unlike in western countries these months they experienced Spring. The weather is so good and the humidity makes you go to the beach, eating some cool desserts, going out with friends or families. During summer there are may destinations that many people would like to go to. The resorts and hotels are fully booked (especially now Holy Week is approaching) and discovering undiscovered summer getaway. Enjoying summer heat and making their summer vacation a memorable one. 

But, the reality is HAHAHA!! I'm dreaming of these, I'm looking forward for summer because, maybe I have the opportunity to travel alone or to travel with my family. Every summer I'm hoping maybe i could travel one day, Its my ultimate dream to be a backpack traveler, doing a travel blog, doing a travel show and wandering and travelling the country alone. Maybe, that is the reason why i studied Tourism Management because for the love of travelling, but I don't have the opportunity to travel because of money problems, but I've been in a few places that I will treasure forever and that was unforgettable experience for me. I like to travel not only summer time but throughout the year. To be honest, I'm kinda jealous to the people who have the opportunity to travel, I don't know why HAHAHA!! maybe because they have the chance to explore the place, having that summer experience, and a chance to be alone in a new beautiful place. 

Still hoping one day I will travel in God's time ;)

(some pictures of my few travels)

Have a great summer vacation everyone

love,

shebang

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dear diary,

I feel lazy to post today and i I don't know what to post . I have a no idea what to post and Im not that brainy to post some ideas just random posts. But i will posts some pictures that will inspire us throughout the week.. Have a wonderful week ahead and enjoy every moment with it with your friends, families and loved ones..

(photos credits: www.instagram.com/thegoodqoute)

love,

shebang

Thirty Seconds to Mars - "Alibi" Lyrics

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When I am so sad, when something bothered in mind, when I am not comfortable, when I dont know what to do, when I am depressed or anything when there is something wrong, I always listen to music. When you put your earphone listening to music, everything is perfect. No one tease you, no one criticizes you everything is normal and perfect. Music inspires you, music saves lives, it makes you happy.

This is one of my favorite songs.., I fell apart but come back up again :)

Enjoy your day everyone

love,

shebang

Happy April Fools Day!!

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Today is April 1 and the world celebrates April Fools Day!! All over the day I always see April Fools pranks in my Facebook, Twitter and Instagram pages. Some of my friends in Facebook change their relationship status in single to in relationship or engaged, it is so hilarious and i said what the heck.

Earlier, my dear friend of mine texted me that she is pregnant! My first reaction was what the f*ck, is this true? how come? you never told me about it! and I remember maayyygaawwdd!! Its April 1 its April Fools Day!! I'm about to reply her that but gladly i didn't have a load!! HAHAHA.

And the best April's Fool prank that i heard that Michael Jordan will play  one regular season on his team Charlotte Bobcats against Philadelphia 76ers and it broke the hearts of basketball fans hoping that it is true and sadly its not.

                                          

Enjoy your day and remember trust no one only your self.

love,

shebang